Tag: Asides

Just thinking . . .

You know, sitting here all day alone in my room doing random things left me a lot of time to think about things. Now, these things might be good, or they might be bad. I’ll just cover a few…

The Fam
Ok, now, as many of you know I school in Seattle and the family is back in Eden Prairie. So, that leaves a good 1700 miles or so between me and them. Now, when I am home all I do is bitch about being there because my old high school friends and I are out of touch and it is difficult to know what is going on when I work all day and am spending time with the family. But, being back in school for only a week now I am realizing that the next time I will see them will be in September. Yes, 9 months. Now, for some of you this may not be a big deal but for me is will be hard. I may not show it, but for those of you who really know me. I can be tough to read sometimes and what I am actually feeling/thinking may not be exactly what I come off as. Anyways, tonight I realized that from talking to them on the phone and online that I will miss not seeing them. Sometimes a voice is not enough.

Just Me
Well, I made a New Year’s resolution. Yes, I plan to keep it. Now, you probably want to know what it is. Well, it’s pretty simple: No excuses. I figure that I weak out on so many things because I just don’t want to do them. Well, I need to stop that and just do whatever. This is hard for me because I am so concrete and sequential. But, I think that I can stick to this and make the most of it. Now, you can’t come up to me and give me some bullshit like “Hey Ryan, give me $20.” That will not only land you a nasty response, but this is not the purpose of why I am doing this. I have my reasons for this and you don’t need to know them. If you ask, and I’m up for it, I’d probably tell you about anything. Yeah, anything.

Friendship
Coming out to Seattle for school left me severed with all of the friends that I had in high school. Now, I guess I never considered that I would be totally severing ties with them. But, I think that it would be fair to say that I am mutual friends with many of the friends that I was good friends with in high school. Some of which, are probably reading this (I know that you are, don’t ask how I know, but I do). But, I am fortunate to know many different people on different levels out here in Seattle. Now, as much as people try to change from when they are in HS and get the chance to “start over” in college, I don’t think I really did this much. I have a good size group of people who I consider friends (if they consider me back as one is their own deal), but there are a few (they know who they are) who I guess I’d consider more than just a friend. It’s nice to have them around for anything, but you all really don’t care to hear about that. So, that’s enough about that. . .

If you read this far, congrats you should get a prize. I apologize if this doesn’t make sense, but sometimes it just helps to write things out when you are thinking of shit like this. Now, I’m not going crazy or any shit, so don’t fret. But, if you feel like asking me about this or whatever, you know the number.

*edit* New image on the left. Notice the person in the back, that’s my roommate from last year. He never gets in pictures, but I tricked him and got this one.

Today’s Victim

Again today I amaze myself. I was going downstairs to get a drink out of the fridge to put into this cup I have from IKEA. I set it on the counter so I could open the fridge and get the drink out. While setting the cup down I notice that our Brita pitcher was empty on the counter from earlier in the day when I emptied it into my Nalgene before classes. So, I figured that I would fill it up so I had the water for tomorrow. As I precede to pickup/move the pitcher towards the direction of the sink I nudge the cup off of the counter and onto the floor. The first hit was amazing, it didn’t break. However, on the second hit it completely fell apart and was in pieces on the floor. Startled, I made some not so nice comments directed at myself then I proceeded to clean up my mess. I got the large parts picked up quite easily and when I got to this small piece of the cup it decided to make by day by puncturing the fragile skin on my left pinky. So, now I am bleeding all over my finger and the blood is coming out quite rapidly. I go to the sink to wash it off and it seems that the wound doesn’t know the meaning of stop bleeding. After it slowed down I made my move and put a band-aid no my pinky to stop the bleeding.

Now, needless to say this is quite silly on my part, but this is the third day in a row that I have done something to physically harm myself. I have now successfully cut my right index finger on a pair of scissors opening a box, burned my left index finger making dinnfer, and now I cut my left pinky on a piece of glass that I was trying to pickup.

However, in other news…. I dropped I S 300. That class is lame and was not worth my time and effort. So, my updated schedule can be found here.

Well, I’m back in the Midwest. It has been quick past few days, but that is alright with me. I had my Computer Science test on Tuesday and it went much better than I expected. Now, I did study quite a ridulous amount for this test. I mean I had nothing to do for a week so when I was bored I studied. How many hours was this then? Well… about 16 or more. Yup, I studied 16 hours just for one silly test. Now, the upside to this was that when I took this test I felt like I knew everything that was on this test. Going on this feeling I completed the test in an hour, half of our allotted time. It made me feel pretty good to be done, but at the same time quite nervous because I got done so fast. Now I sit and wait for grades to be posted on MyUW. *sigh*

However, like I said, I am home. That is all that matters at this point. It was snowing when I landed and it is a little colder than I am used to. Now, it’s nothing that I haven’t been throught before, but I am so used to the mild Seattle weather that this is cold for me. But, luckily I spend most of my time inside.

I am back at work continuing on with my internship position that I had a Supervalu, Inc. this summer. It started off fine, but I have completed around four days of work in two days all because I found a shortcut in the process that cut the time down by like 75%. So, I am left picking up people’s work mid stride. This is really hard to do. It is like being in a class that you know nothing about and then showing up for the final with the expectation that you will get a 4.0 on the test. That is what it was like for me today in the last 3 hours of work. I was told that I needed to get out some reports on testing by the end of the day, but that I had to decipher everything on my own with no knowledge of the last three months worth of work. Needless to say that sucked. Come Monday it will be more of the same. But, now it’s the weekend and I can sleep in a little and finally relax.

It’s nice to be home… but I miss Seattle and the people there already.

Well finals are over and my Computer Science test was much easier than I expected. Now, granted, it was my only real final. And yes I had a week to study for it. So, really there was no excuse for me to do poorly on this test. But, even with that said, I could have probably studied a lost less (I did study 16+hrs) and still done as well. But, that is what I did when I was bored… I studied. It will probably pay off too.

But, after the test today I hung out with my good ‘ol friend Brent. It’s been a while since we hung out and it was nice to just sit and talk about whatever we felt like. It was something that was good for me and relaxing at the same time. But, now I must go home and work for a bit. I hope to take a break from my online life for two weeks and maybe just actually relax. I spend 10 weeks in front of my damn computer and I never get to see what it is like with out it. So, you will all have to suffer, if you can even call missing me suffering…

Until a later date…

Last night was a good time… maybe the last one before I take my final and then head home for break. I headed out to Earl’s on the Ave last night to meet up w/ Tien and some of her friends just to chill and have a good time. Let me tell you, it was a good time had by all. I was there for at least 2hrs until it was time for the munchies. Which, when it is late night means pizza. So, we got some pizza and were there for what seemed like a while, but I am sure was really not that long at all. Interesting though was that they must have really disliked us, we were kind of loud and all, and that right at the stroke of 2am they took the beers away from a few of us without any warning. This started a little spat with this fella and then lead to massive quick drinking of beers… I just enjoyed this moment watching it all unfold while they argued and then proceeded to drink…

That was last night…

Today was pretty relaxed. Watched a movie, Office Space, and just hung out w/ Kesley then came back and did laundry and studied… I am starting early for this test. I figure if I do a little bit each day that will help me better than trying to do a lot the day before the test. But, well see how that works out. Tomorrow is more CSE studying and another movie of the day that is to be determined.

A busy day of nothing. I woke up too late to go to class and then I just made myself lunch and then relaxed by watching Bad Boys on DVD. I haven’t watched that movie in a while, but I found that I really enjoy it quite a bit. Then the info people and I went to play ball at the IMA. That was good times as usual. They get to see me talk trash and then suck it up hardcore on the courts. After this it was teriyaki, tv, and poker back at my place. The info people are all really cool people to hang out with and it just keeps reminding me what I am sticking with this major. I have made some great friends here in the iSchool that make it more worthwhile than ever to be in this major. But, now they night is upon us and finals week is here for us to suffer over. Only one week until I am home… to work. Bleh…

Take a close look at this pic from camp this summer… more so the shadow. Thanks to Sean for this lovely pic.