Well, I am sitting here in INFO 311 and my friend David was asking me if I was writing on my xanga. So, I decided to post this because this class is quite boring and I have nothing better to do. I mean, my PDA has 802.11b so I can just surf the web in class. This probably is not a good use of class time, but oh well… Time to go Tho is presenting.
My Creation
For Stephen & Wendy <3
Well, on my way home from work I decided that I was going to take some pictures of the surroundings. So, when I got off the bus back to University Village I decided to take a pic of the bus that I just got off of and see what would turn out. Below I made it into a wallpaper format for really my pleasure, but it is here to be shared if you wish to use it. The only things that I did to the picture was add a little black and white to the right of the picutre, the black header and footer rectangles, and the quote. I like simple, and this is what I came up with. Feel free to leave a comment if you have something to say about it.
Releif
Well, today was a good day. The internal tension that I have been having for the past few weeks has been released when I finally got to tell her how I felt. Now, it is not that fact that she needed to know what I had to say, but it was more for me to get it out of my system and for me to stop thinking about it. Needless to say, it was probably the best thing I could have done. I mean, it was something I have been meaning to say (get out of my system) for sometime, but it really just all got messed up in the end. I had more to say, but really, what I said in under a minute summed it all up. This is probably better since I have a tendency to blab. In either case this person, who I think they know who they are (KEA), showed me something that I don’t do a lot. That is thinking positive.
Ok, so, maybe it seems that I am pretty positive on the outside, but inside I hold a lot of stuff in and I am probably way more a pessimist than an optimist. In talking to her online she was basically saying that no matter what the day brought her she always had the best thing of the day on her mind and nothing else. I envy this, seriously. I always seem to focus on the negative. Maybe it is because I want to build on the negative, but if I focused on the positive and built on that, what could happen? Probably a lot.
I can’t seem to appreciate all the other POSTIVE things that happen during my day. Things like hanging out with the INFO peeps, super friends’ lunch, or just anything else that would make my day. I always let the little shit get in the way. I have to learn to move on from these things, but it is going to be hard. I wish I had this attitude all the time, but I can’t help to think about how things could have been different. I need to stop with the “What if?” and start thinking more positively about my day and about myself.
Left only with my thoughts
Well the other night (Tuesday) I just could not sleep. It was one of those nights where one thing that is mentioned leads to a massive flood of things/emotions to the mind. Now, I won’t say what exactly started this, but I will say thatit came from an online conversation.
When I went to go to bed I figured that I would just be so tired, which I was, and I would just fall asleep. Well, I was far from wrong. I just laid there in my bed thinking one thing, which leads to another thing; and so on… this was not good. I was already physically tired by my mind was just not goingto let my body rest, not just yet at least.
I am sure that most of you have had thought processes like this before. You start with something so small and it leads to things that you don’t have control over. This is something that I just had to deal with sometimes. Now, really, this whole ordeal kind of started on my end (by me not doing things I “should” have) and I have no one to blame, except for myself. However, then when I say this I just end up reflecting on what was in the past and when I should have done certain things. But, what is in the past is in the past. I can’t change it,no matter how much I wish I could.
There is so much more to say, but some of it is better to be said in person and I don’t feel that this is the proper forum for it. Now I just wait forthe call that I asked for. You think it will happen?
The internet never lies! Er, yeah…
This was a convo w/ my good freind Julia tonight. Yah, the Internet never lies! Hahahaha. Man I have issues. Note: The 1st link no longer works.
[12:08 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:08 AM] Ryan: http://students.washington.edu/rprins/kelsey.htm
[12:08 AM] Jula: yea yea.
[12:08 AM] Ryan: she didn’t believe me
[12:08 AM] Ryan: that you could do that
[12:09 AM] Jula: kelsey????
[12:09 AM] Ryan: yah
[12:09 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:09 AM] Jula: hmmmmm
[12:09 AM] Ryan: it’s so ghetto
[12:09 AM] Ryan: made in word
[12:09 AM] Jula: it didn’t work.
[12:09 AM] Ryan: bah
[12:09 AM] Ryan: ok
[12:09 AM] Jula: FIX IT.
[12:09 AM] Jula: hahha jk.
[12:09 AM] Ryan: I DELETED IT
[12:09 AM] Ryan: SO THER!
[12:09 AM] Ryan: !
[12:10 AM] Jula: what no.
[12:10 AM] Jula: get it back.
[12:10 AM] Ryan: too late
[12:10 AM] Ryan: here I’ll make a new one
[12:10 AM] Jula: ok thanks.
[12:11 AM] Ryan: http://students.washington.edu/rprins/jula.htm
[12:11 AM] Ryan: The internet doesn’t lie
[12:12 AM] Jula: hahahah
[12:12 AM] Jula: YES.
[12:12 AM] Jula: but where r the files?
[12:12 AM] Jula: hahaha
[12:12 AM] Ryan: still uploading
[12:12 AM] Ryan: 10 more min
[12:12 AM] Ryan: it’s big
[12:12 AM] Jula: ahh ok
[12:12 AM] Jula: I LOVE IT.
[12:12 AM] Ryan: I can even add a pic to it
[12:12 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:12 AM] Jula: i feel special.
[12:13 AM] Jula:
[12:13 AM] Jula: YES
[12:13 AM] Jula: devote a whole page to me.
[12:13 AM] Jula: haha.
[12:13 AM] Jula: that’s the way it should be.
[12:13 AM] Jula: put a personal ad up for me
[12:13 AM] Jula: no jerks allowed.
[12:13 AM] Jula: hahaha
[12:13 AM] Jula: i tried dling her new album but they were all crappy
[12:14 AM] Jula: they did that sketchy thing
[12:14 AM] Jula: u kow?
[12:14 AM] Ryan: yah
[12:14 AM] Jula: yea HATE THAT.
[12:14 AM] Jula: can’t stand it
[12:14 AM] Jula: i shoudl really jsut go buy the cd
[12:14 AM] Jula: i think i will actaully
[12:14 AM] Jula: if i like it enuf
[12:14 AM] Jula: or have my sis get me promo copy
[12:15 AM] Ryan: ok
[12:15 AM] Ryan: look at it again
[12:15 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:15 AM] Jula: j
[12:15 AM] Jula: k
[12:15 AM] Jula: LOVE IT.
[12:15 AM] Jula: yes.
[12:15 AM] Jula: haha.
[12:17 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:17 AM] Ryan: again
[12:17 AM] Ryan: look
[12:17 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:18 AM] Jula: K
[12:18 AM] Jula: omg it’s great.
[12:18 AM] Jula: aww.
[12:18 AM] Jula: our love is ont he internet.
[12:18 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:18 AM] Ryan: wait
[12:18 AM] Ryan: one more
[12:18 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:18 AM] Ryan: k
[12:18 AM] Ryan: again
[12:18 AM] Jula: ok
[12:18 AM] Ryan: haah
[12:19 AM] Jula: hahahah
[12:19 AM] Jula: omg i toatlly laughed out loud
[12:19 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:19 AM] Jula: omg it’s a bit creepy tho…
[12:19 AM] Jula: hahahhahaha
[12:19 AM] Ryan: yah
[12:19 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:19 AM] Jula: ok almost drooled.
[12:19 AM] Jula: SICK.
[12:19 AM] Jula: hahaha
[12:19 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:19 AM] Ryan: haha
[12:19 AM] Jula: hahaha
[12:19 AM] Jula: i’m so gross
[12:19 AM] Ryan: lol
[12:19 AM] Jula: that’s why i don’t have a boyfriend.
[12:19 AM] Jula: how sad is that.
[12:19 AM] Ryan: haha
Weekend. What Weekend?
Well the weekend has come and basically gone. It was spent doing some fun things (poker, mafia, IKEA!!!) and some not so fun things (studying). But, overall the weekend was good. I moved my bed around in my room and now it is higher off the gound than before. This is nothing that new to me since my bed it kinda far off the ground at home, but being so low to the ground was nice, I could just fall out of bed and go onto my business. But, yeah… The weekend was nice. Got to hang out with some cool new people on Friday when we played poker and then later moved to a friend’s apartment to play Mafia and just hang out. This was nice to get to meet some new people from around where I live. I see many of them all the time and I feel like I should at least know their name. Now I do.
But yeah, man, studying sucks. I mean, this goes without saying, but it always seems that I spend a majority of my time just catching up. But, I can’t complain, I will always find time for my friends and for meeting new people. So, I can’t bitch too bad. Overall a good weekend, now it’s time for the week to begin. I start work this week, but my Dad will be up at the end of the week and it will be nice to see him for a little bit. So, until then….
Recursion
Ok, today I spent a good three hours with the Info people working on this lame ass CSE 373 homework. Not only did it suck big time but we found that recursion sucks. If you don’t know what recursion is, well basically it is a function that calls itself over and over until it meets a condition that will make it stop calling itself. So, in basic terms it’s like this: You are told to say count up one at a time over and over until you reach one hundred. When you reach one hundred you just say, “Ok, I’m done.” With the frustration of recursion we found the following funny quotes funny:
– Suck me recursively until NULL.
– Love me recursively.
– Recursion sucks @$$!
– CSE 373 sucks recursively, forever and ever.
– Eat me recursively.
– Annoy me more recursively. (Like this is hard to do ;))